i think a year and a half is a good time period in between journal entries, right? so if anyone is reading this, id like to thank you for wasting your time on my words instead of some other persons. also, im gonna just copy paste things that i write into my journal from now on. thatd be cool. but probably wont happen. so instead, ill just copypaste something i wrote today and then forget about it. here i go. im gonna do it. now: "something tells me youre all conspiring against me. i can just feel it. its like a pressure behind my eyes. and it pushes itself out. im seeing stars. they're stabbing me in the back. right in that spot i can't reach. my hands grope to detail an open wound, and draw deep red circles on my skin. a built in target made of welts, to give you all a good idea of where to strike." bam. pretty weird right?